|been a strange few days. trying to get used to being on my own again. been in pp (ko phi phi) for 4 days i think (time seems to get very confused when travelling, no need to know dates or times, just have a rough idea of where you are and where you are going). feel like i've grown so much in these past few days, went to see a tsunami village then got totally lost in a maze like town. for the first time ever i was lost but i didnt care! i wasnt in a rush, had no deadlines to be anywhere so i kind of just enjoyed being lost in a strange place and didnt panic or even try particularly hard to unlose myself, just went with the flow.
i went on a snorkelling trip yesterday and had a fantastic time travelling around four islands on a longtailed boat with about 18 other people. met some lovely people (pete and karina from queensland, suzie and neil from london, mike from county derry and nina from brazil.), saw some amazing coral, some mad fish, including a massive schoal of swordfish, sea urchins, jelly fish (eek!). one of the islands was called monkey island for obvious reasons and i spent most of the time there watching 2 monkeys seemingly practising their muy tai moves on each other, was hilarious. went out to dinner with nina last night and meeting neil and suzie for dinner tonight along with aline (who i bumped into just before coming on here).
Tomorrow i leave pp and am heading back to ko lanta for 5 - 7 days before starting to make my way to malaysia. i've decided im too reliant on others to make me do anything and just want to spend some time in solitude (lanta is a fab place to do that). planning to do nothing much apart from take myself exploring. i'm learning to self motivate plus also to be more confident in myself and my ability to make the right decisions for me. i'm learning i am an explorer, i dont need to be scared anymore. I'm more than capable of making the right choices for me. not planning on texting or using internet for entire time on ko lanta, just being by myself, watching the amazing sunsets, sitting on the beach looking at the amazing starry skys, watching crabs, and being harrassed by the hotel's resident friendly black squirrel.
fuck me i'm lucky!! finally i can really appreciate how lucky i am to be able to have this opportunity to grow and move on in my life as well as getting to see some amazingly beautiful places in the process.